Just let me be.
A lot is going on in my head right now, and the last thing I would want happening to me is to be told I don't speak with the right accent. That is just like a trigger that sets off the bullet of pent up anger. Correct me if I am wrong, but isn't the way we speak, our accent defined by the place and people we grew up with as a child. It's part of the habits and characteristics that make us who we are, and this is what I truly believe.
How then do people expect me to suddenly switch on the 'Turn english accent on button' and begin to speak like an Englishman.
What I find truly offensive is being told I do not speak like I should, and should 'try' speak with a more English accent since I have been here for four years. The only retort that comes to my mind then is 'Leave me alone!'. Do I not get that much freedom in my life that I can speak the way I want to? Do I lack in my already high levels of shyness that you must point more things to make me feel insecure about who I am?
Must I now start copying the way others talk to make myself look 'presentable'?
My accent is what I grew up, the way I am.. Should I then get cosmetic surgeries done, liposuction and what not and become just another 'Perfect barbie doll'.
Does it not hurt me when I have people around me constantly telling me this is wrong and this is right? Am I not old enough to decide for myself the things I want to do and the things I do not.
I am not happy with the way I speak too. And the more you point it out, the more insecure I become. I am already reaching levels where conversations make me so conscious. I am becoming someone I do not want to be. Let me rejoice in the person I am, let me be. Let me learn to appreciate who I am. Let me learn to stop self evaluating.. and this does not begin until you stop pointing your fingers at me, telling me I am wrong.
I would like to live with myself the way I am. The clothes you say arent girly enough, the face you say needs to be more painted up, the accent you wonder if people can understand.. Well, all I have to say in return is- I am sorry I could not be more of who you wanted me to be. But please, just let me be.
How then do people expect me to suddenly switch on the 'Turn english accent on button' and begin to speak like an Englishman.
What I find truly offensive is being told I do not speak like I should, and should 'try' speak with a more English accent since I have been here for four years. The only retort that comes to my mind then is 'Leave me alone!'. Do I not get that much freedom in my life that I can speak the way I want to? Do I lack in my already high levels of shyness that you must point more things to make me feel insecure about who I am?
Must I now start copying the way others talk to make myself look 'presentable'?
My accent is what I grew up, the way I am.. Should I then get cosmetic surgeries done, liposuction and what not and become just another 'Perfect barbie doll'.
Does it not hurt me when I have people around me constantly telling me this is wrong and this is right? Am I not old enough to decide for myself the things I want to do and the things I do not.
I am not happy with the way I speak too. And the more you point it out, the more insecure I become. I am already reaching levels where conversations make me so conscious. I am becoming someone I do not want to be. Let me rejoice in the person I am, let me be. Let me learn to appreciate who I am. Let me learn to stop self evaluating.. and this does not begin until you stop pointing your fingers at me, telling me I am wrong.
I would like to live with myself the way I am. The clothes you say arent girly enough, the face you say needs to be more painted up, the accent you wonder if people can understand.. Well, all I have to say in return is- I am sorry I could not be more of who you wanted me to be. But please, just let me be.
I like your writing but it's too hard to read... can you please change the font?
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